I believe I’ve accomplished much in March. Though things have changed from my previous DDSX posts. Maybe sales just isn’t my thing? I’m still unsure, but all I know is that I am now able to focus on things little by little. One by one, instead of focusing on multiple things all at once.
I feel as if that has unlocked one key to happiness. I don’t feel stress. I’m happy.
One of the day in March, my friend literally had about thirty minutes to teach me how to edit some videos and I remember just watching him and thinking, “I am not going to be able to remember all this.” (I have really bad memory) The next day, I turned on my computer, opened program, closed my eyes and started rewinding to the previous night. For a second, I felt as if I was him. Pulling together and apart clips. I’m forever grateful for that thirty minute we had, because I actually learned something.
Also, aside from that. I’m getting comfortable around camera. Being in front or behind camera doesn’t really bother me that much anymore. Especially with the shoots I’ve done.
I’m still waiting to get a call back from the no-kill animal shelter to check the status of my volunteer application. I’m really hoping to work with no-kill animal shelter and also animal advocates and rescues so I can get the experience of how it works and so I can help out as much as I can. One day, I will be able to start my own and save lives.
My goal this month is getting to the L.A fashion district to get some materials for my clothing line.
We’re already a quarter into 2017. I have to stay focus and execute my goal.
I just wanted to post a video so that I at least keep up with my goal. I am still learning on how to edit and use Youtube, so bear with me please.
I’ve decided for now that I will be doing book reviews. I am currently reading Rich Dad Poor Dad by Robert Kyosaki.
Fitness/Life video will be uploaded as soon as I get the hang of editing.
I made it through February. I must say a lot of time I was easily distracted, or just distracted. I wasn’t able to focus, but that was because I didn’t allow myself to. I noticed times when I caught myself distracted, I was able to control what I want to focus on. I was aware and sometimes I was able to snap out of it, however, in some case I was too caught up in my emotions and thoughts I allowed the distraction to take its toll over me.
So what did I learn February?
I was able to identify my fear and weaknesses:
Fear of rejection: I’m afraid of rejecting others and I’m afraid of being rejected. That’s why I fear asking questions, and that’s why I fear no’s, even if the “no” is the worse that could possibly happen.
Fear of judgement: I’m frightful of other’s opinion. I know everyone is going to judge one another. I know that people don’t even care about me more than half the time. I’m afraid. of other’s opinion, and I’m afraid of looking anything that’s negative to another’s eye.
Being alone: I was able to be alone half of the month, and I hated it. I’m learning to love it, but I’m so used to having supports around me. Having a friend by my side. Doing things with other, that when I’m alone; I do nothing.
It’s March and I’ve met new friends, and I have my old friends. I think it’s time that I do things alone. If I’m afraid, I’ll find someone who’s not afraid to take that extra step with me. At least I will still put in action.
1. I will take more risk: business and adventures
2. I will conversate more with others. I will ask question. I will start and be in control of the conversation
3. I will have more alone time.
I finally got a chance to upload my first Youtube video (intro).
If you get a chance, please watch and subscribe 😀
My goal is to post every week, every other week, or once a month.
My videos will have some of my work out routine, my meals, my goals and what I’m doing to execute it, and other daily live activity.
This week is coming to an end and I must say I haven’t gotten anything done. I can’t use my feelings as an excuse and I can’t use words to justify my wasted time.
I’m afraid, I’m hurting, I’m alone and I’m letting all these emotions effect my daily decisions. I have to learn to put my emotions aside and FOCUS.
Fear is apart of being who we are. It’s a part of being human. We’re often told to be strong. If we can’t face our fear or get over it, that makes us a coward. It makes us a weakling. It shows that we are not capable of doing what we want to do or have to do because we’re too afraid to do it.We set goals and don’t accomplish it because in our mind it’s easy to do, whereas conducting our goals take effort, time, and risk. We’re afraid to take risk.
I love the idea of challenges, I love the idea of risks and dangers. However, when it comes down to it, I’m afraid. Afraid of what? I don’t know. I have yet to figure myself out.
Robert T. Kyosaki states, “It is said that the fear of public speaking is a fear greater than death for most people. According to psychiatrists, the fear of public speaking is caused by the fear of ostracism, the fear of standing out, the fear of criticism, the fear of ridicule, the fear of being an outcast. THE FEAR OF BEING DIFFERENT PREVENTS MOST PEOPLE FROM SEEKING NEW WAYS TO SOLVE THEIR PROBLEMS.”
So how do we go about facing our fear? How do we accept it? Fear is in our brain, it’s always going to be a part of us. We can deny it, but one thing everyone has in common is we’re all afraid of something. Whether it be personal, finance, death, it can be anything.
Day 8 of February
My goal of the month:is to start (again) what I’ve started two years ago: Find ways to help animals and donate to shelters, rescues and advocates.
Goal of the week: is to get my first Youtube video up by Sunday.
Today’s goal: is to get my pictures up like I mentioned in my previous post
01 February 2017
January just ended, and it is now February the first. What have I accomplished since my last Dear Diary post?
I’ve gotten two sales opportunity. Maybe even three. I didn’t turn any of them down because I’ve turned down so many opportunities in the past and I didn’t even realize it at the time. This year, I’m taking every opportunity I can get to learn, experience, and break out of my comfort zone.
I’ve incorparated cardio into my weekly routine, that is an accomplishment because I stopped doing cardio since October. So I do cardio (stair masters & one mile jog/walk) about 3-4x/ week I started today off weighing 123lb. I have no goal weight, however my goal is to decrease my body fat and maintain the little muscles that I have. I will be posting a before and current photo of myself around this week so stay tuned.
I’ve recorded my first video. It’s just an intro, but it is a start and at least I did that. Goals are achievable with even just baby steps. I’m fired up and excited to take on 2017.