I believe I’ve accomplished much in March. Though things have changed from my previous DDSX posts. Maybe sales just isn’t my thing? I’m still unsure, but all I know is that I am now able to focus on things little by little. One by one, instead of focusing on multiple things all at once.
I feel as if that has unlocked one key to happiness. I don’t feel stress. I’m happy.
One of the day in March, my friend literally had about thirty minutes to teach me how to edit some videos and I remember just watching him and thinking, “I am not going to be able to remember all this.” (I have really bad memory) The next day, I turned on my computer, opened program, closed my eyes and started rewinding to the previous night. For a second, I felt as if I was him. Pulling together and apart clips. I’m forever grateful for that thirty minute we had, because I actually learned something.
Also, aside from that. I’m getting comfortable around camera. Being in front or behind camera doesn’t really bother me that much anymore. Especially with the shoots I’ve done.
I’m still waiting to get a call back from the no-kill animal shelter to check the status of my volunteer application. I’m really hoping to work with no-kill animal shelter and also animal advocates and rescues so I can get the experience of how it works and so I can help out as much as I can. One day, I will be able to start my own and save lives.
My goal this month is getting to the L.A fashion district to get some materials for my clothing line.
We’re already a quarter into 2017. I have to stay focus and execute my goal.
This month came off to a great start. It’s going well. I have the support of my friends. I’m getting what I have to done. I’m recording and documenting. Life is great, especially after I fell off the grid a bit towards the end of February. Remember: When you’re going through a tough time, things always gets worse before they get better.
I’ve met new friends this year. Now, it’s never my intention to meet new friends. I always talk to people I come across and that’s that; however, I realize that the best friendship comes unexpectedly. It’s amazing, and it beautiful, and it’s so beneficial because you learn about others, yet you learn about yourself. It’s a way of self-developement.
Yesterday afterschool, Ces and I did our make-up. We were getting ready to go climb trees and hike with a photographer who wanted to shoot photos of us. He never made it.
Ces and I try to catch a sunset at least once every week, if not twice. We love it. I never had a friend to go out and play make-belief with. We will pretend we’re animals, or we’re getting chased or we’re lost and make the best of it.
I never knew how wild and adventurous I was because I was always fearful and she helped open up a new door for me. I love it. Being outside and surrounded by nothing but trees, and grass and dirt is beautiful. It gives me the ultimate high to life. I would choose this high over a substance high anyday.
I don’t promise I’ll be successful in life, but I promise I’ll die trying.
By successful, I mean wealth, health, happiness, and love.
Wealth: Money isn’t my motive in life, but it’s definately close to oxygen. I never wish to be rich. It’s probably nice having everything, but I don’t care much for materials as much as I care about my happiness, experience, and relationship with others.
Health: I strive to be as healthy as I can be. Physically, mentally, and emotionally. Why? It helps boost confidence. It expands knowledge and experience. It’s like a game of truth or dare, but it’s a combination of both.
Happiness: Happiness can be anything. What do you do that makes you happy? I love learning. I love experiencing. I love taking risk. I love life and all of it’s struggle. Knowing that I’ve inspired and helped others mean the world to me. That’s what keeps me going and that’s what encourages me to take even bigger risk.
Love: Everyone loves and wants to be loved. We’re human and we want. Love is one of the most powerful emotion along with hate and desire. I love my friends and family. I love the strangers next to me. I love because we’re all human. I love everything on this planet because I am grateful. I’m grateful for earth. I’m grateful for the trees and every living creature on this planet.